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Self​-​Titled

by Ian Miles

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1.
You told me I sleep Like my heart was breaking The patterns in my breath The way I moan and shake My darling, my darling Oh Russian Red The color of your lips And fingernails In the shadow Of a lack of evidence I would keep my mouth shut I would hide the bruises That you beat Into my ribs Go ahead! Swing your bag of oranges Just in case
2.
I was born In a paper boat A simple sinking vessel A single piece of paper With crisp white creases Water filled the quarter deck Washed away my company And with no one Standing next to me I became two different species One that swam away And one that looked for my crew mates Off the upper deck Off the starboard bow Off some river's edge You and I We are brothers Only you fell from the sky From the ill-proportionate wingspan Of your paper airplane We've fallen off the same cliffs We share the same blood So let's drink until the morning When we'll both feel insane And we can swim away Or we can look for our crew mates Off the upper deck Off the starboard bow Off some river's edge
3.
A summer storm In the thunders Of our hands How my fingers Stretched and pined Under most unfortunate skies And the Nor'easter Took my favorite clothes It took so many showers To wash my bones white Never did I plan To burn down houses Never did I want To walk away You are the quiet And simple honesty That I've hidden for so long From everyone Someone page the guard! There's a bad dream Waiting in sheep's skin The door becomes A monument Resounding the doom Written plainly On his Stroke Someone page the Guard! Someone please page the guard! Never did I Want to believe In something More than now More than for myself For everyone
4.
Two-Thousand 03:20
I built a house Out of the ashes Of the West coast And every room We pass through The doors Don't seem to close And every second second Is a second not to lose Let not these minutes Pass beneath our shoes I know all your secrets I know just what you're feeling The words you use when you're upset Well, don't you worry darling You are not alone I've travelled Two-thousand miles To find everything I've ever wanted here And even if I can't stay And you can not love me now I know Where my heart will always be And are we cruel For Doing this to ourselves When I felt your foot Brush against my ankle I felt the whole world Split in two And I sang it to the clouds That now hang over both of our heads That even if you hadn't felt the same You'd spend the rest of your days Knowing all my secrets Knowing what I'm feeling The words I use when I'm upset See I told you darling You are not alone
5.
ISL 03:13
I Don’t think that you have cried enough Because You didn’t go out sailing You didn’t even try to drown But neither of us want to admit That we were wrong When your body stopped Reacting to mine I knew the cancer would spread To your tongue And that my bones Would break from the inside Please stop Coming through my door Now sick is less than the fevers that are eating me And hardly keeping me from burying myself In your leftovers And snaring myself In the traps you lovingly left for me Would you pack your shit and just let me die alone Let me move on Let me throw away everything I’ve never wanted but kept for you Those nights I slept on the couch Well they were your fault too Please unplug my wounds Let the bruises fill with blood Let open gashes in my knees get gritty in the mud And one more thing Oh would you please Stop sleeping in my bed Now I’m praying for a flood That will swallow your victories I don’t want you back I just want you to leave
6.
Idlewild 02:48
This is not wishful thinking I swear that I'm lying On the edge of my bed My hands holding my head Rekindling hatred over and over Forgiving all evil-doers Just trying to remember What I did When I was sober Cause this is the place I want to be This is the place That I choose to die in And the sky never looked so pretty As when it opened up and ate me Spit me out on the street Where I splattered like a glass of wine I just cleaned my body So when someone finds me I will not be dirty Just ugly and empty I'm going out tonight The stars are way too bright They're burning up the sky It doesn't matter If I live or die And if I make it home before morning Then I will Have made it home alive And the lines of the highway didn't take me Nor did the rocks Under the bridge I must have realized I was happy Because I'm where I want to be And the sky never looked so pretty As when it opened up and ate me Then spit me out on the street Where I splattered like a glass of wine
7.
A Conjuring 01:26
You are a ghost Rest in peace Oh would you please.
8.
A Ghost 05:46
Like flags on falling tides You grow colder as I grow more alone These windows across your apparent chest Pull me down like shifting riverbeds I gaze into your emptiness Looking with my eyes Looking for a fire You twirl, oh how you twirl You dance, oh how you dance and you wane As you tip-toe across the tombstones You come to me in my dreams You call my name from thickest fog Go ahead and boil these words down Just to tell me what I really mean But I know the winter’s coming And the snow will show how off-white you are I can smell you on the breeze Moving across the open and empty half of the closet There are footprints as in dust Where your things are now just indents in the carpet I don’t miss your voice I just miss my haunted house Where things moved when I wasn’t in the room And where I could see you in the corner of my eyes I don’t miss you I miss your ghost
9.
I’ve invested everything In lame and legless horse racing And if I could wage my losses I would win them back and more tonight Now clear with understanding With faith and will I’d double-down That if I was any other boy You would look at me the same way! The pillow in your lips runs parallel With my sealed and callous heart I read the twisted echo Of sleeping light in empty bed sheets In the loving words you carved In the trunk of my tree The window panes that I look through Are not the same ones growing in your belly I backed up slow as you reached out Shaking tears out of insecurities My reflection in your eyes Said I want you but I don’t need you You screamed your copper vows And bleated ‘I-love-yous’ What do I and the other boys have in common Except our bodies? Now when I hear a whispered, “I love you” I am deafened with, “I’m lonely.”
10.
Barbara 03:13
Go pick up my gun It’s up above the fireplace Hold it firm in your clutch They’re coming from the dark And whose house is this? Whose hands can she still feel? Who sleeps between these sheets Between her body and yours? No one should ever know oh, oh Oh no one should ever know But I do Oh Barbara get the keys Take my car to town Buy yourself a nice dress And wear out through the seams And whose mistress are you? For I have no one for me? And I would put all I have into you For your lips they look so sweet. No one will have to know Oh no one will have to know About us A band of morning workhorse drawing in the faint light Passes like the leaves the cavalcade has come! Because nothing changes here! Oh we shoot what we can kill And if you cross our paths Of your meat we’ll make a meal. And the sea will ride the tides Oh the sea will rush to shore Once more
11.
The Flood 04:30
When the icicles Melted away this year The top of that tree Was the water line The spring was so cold The ice melted so slow No one saw it coming from below Oh wave goodbye Take me away We stood silent And we stood still As the flood rose above our ankles As I floated into a dream by my bedpost I woke choking in my sheets Weighted and freezing with water from the flood Oh wave goodbye Take me away
12.
I think I've fallen down the wrong hole This one's darker than before I can't see the mouth to match with voice There are warnings all around The water's rising to my shoulders This morning I woke up in an ambulance Speeding down familiar streets I couldn't see any faces But like in a dream I knew you were there I don't think I've ever seen you in this light The circles spin and swallow Your hands seem desperate But your fingers are just too scared to hold on Our bones are split and the lines are drawn Weapons Are met With weapons And red (The fevers burning bright like stars On summer nights in broke down cars The fevers Spreading wide like scars On little wrists in small-town barns) In the density of our consonance You could taste our wicked dissonance A residential partum founds The stone and wall of distances (Though held strong by hands Through storms they do not part These are words between friends That divide houses in their hearts)
13.
Firmament 01:14
Dance with me My darling here tonight To the quiet song of the universe We are to rejoice The dotted sky of twinkling light As if it brought our hands together If you see the stars before I do Please tell me where to look to see the same And if I spot the oncoming traffic I'll grab the wheel and steer us out of the way As I sit burning holes in the carpet You brush your stray hairs from your eyes And a finger for every year I spent without you Finds it's way between my fingers intertwined
14.
Clues strewn back and forth across the white carpet floors That I could see up your skirt in the red pools That reflect the laughter of party guests I catch your stale glances like a sickness. Through the dust I can see your lipstick, smeared From the last time I felt like this. I could ask you the questions That could gut me on their answers Or I could just stagnate Under the shadows of these dancers Hang me on my cross In the middle of your stage Throw at me your pity and your dollars And your first born daughters I could ask them the questions That could gut me on their answers Or I could just stagnate Under the shadows of these dancers Drenched in the low light Of a cheap motel In fact you never sleep alone And I’ll never tell And if this drink doesn’t kill me tonight I’ll quit drinking again And if I don’t die in my dreams tonight I’ll start sleeping in In this soft forgiving light It almost looks like I love you again But I can’t love you tonight Because you didn’t love me then And I will never love again No I will never love again And I will never love again No I will never love again
15.
Desert 03:06
16.
Statue 02:26
These tools I've gathered Are nothing more Than relics Of time gone-by and going to happen But not in this lifetime I'm growing old The clay is growing dry I'm only beginning to use my voice In this light I can see through The blue of her dress Where the rocks dug Into her knees When she fell weak And tore her jeans (She's a statue underwater far from here and that's all)
17.
We built a fire here Long before we had eyes Under the blanket of formlessness We found our way into the light Everything was growing Up from underground Just like new-born babies Know their mothers by their sound I could hear your voice But I didn’t know you from the trees So I starting chasing everything Until I got burnt by the fire that we made There’s a gilded noose around my neck And it’s far too thin to see It’s tethered to and between Everything I want and me On a collision course with split-ends I walk it like a tight rope Finding my conclusions to be nothing But another fork in the road But I read the rules And I know just how it ends When my luck runs out and the slack is cut I’ll be hanging by a thread I could upturn every single stone But I would never find anything Because it’s not how or where I’m looking But how I see what I already have
18.
In the ditch where I found your bones And the letters I wrote to them Is a stream so cold The water is solid at it’s source I am lonely thinking about your ghost Where she wanders and where we used to go I make my way through the burned down town To the darkest of my dreams I lose myself to these trees Gathered in prayer to cast their spells And oh boy do I feel their sway When I’m hiding in their shade! I AM THE FOX UNDER THE GREEN PRACTICING MY INVISIBILE ROUTINE I AM THE IRON GHOST OF THE MOUNTAIN I AM THE HAMMER OF THE STORM THE BURNER OF CHARIOTS THE WAX WINGS OF FAILURES I AM THE QUICK BUT CARELESS SOUL OF THE FIRE A LOVER A THIEF A DESTROYER AND A LIAR Like thick black smoke In a hall of mirrors We can only hope To get out of here They don't make 'em like they used to...
19.
Trumpet 03:31
Forced to the trees The orange-faced choir With pale and failing voices Huddle around the campfire To hum low like machines On this winter’s night They recall when they could sing in the light I want to see the forest I want to see the doors of Boston I wish my tongue was worth more Than a trumpet played for the first time There was a time before Any of us knew that they were there As apparent as a shadow But as important as the sun They sang the soundtrack to our days The only reward was our boot-mark For we tossed no coins we just walked by Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye I want to see the train smoke I want to kneel to new altars I want to raise my bones Like hands to the sky I want to see the desert I want to see Parthenon I want to feel the power Of an unknowable spirit Because right now I can’t tell a storm from a star And everyday I have to ask where we are And your voice sounds better Than a trumpet played for the first time I mean really, really played for the first time

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This is a collection of songs I wrote and recorded over the course of the last year.

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released January 25, 2010

All songs and artwork are copyright Oh My! Records and Ian Miles 2009-2010

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Ian Miles Spokane

Ian Miles is an independent singer-songwriter based out of Spokane, WA.
His Music has been described and "a little cool and a little weird – in a good way" and "very story-telling".
Sometimes mellow and bittersweet; a songbird at your window sill and at other times a thunderous full-throated roar of emotive stomping and hollering like a wild preacher of the end-times!
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